Ok. I will be the first to admit that I’m not great with “consistency”. I know… That’s one one thing that pretty much EVERY business person says, that it’s all about the consistancy.
I’m neurospicy… this shit here is NOT mild. LOL… Basically, any time I “have to” do something, my brain goes into fight/flight/freeze survival mode. And it is even more difficult then it sounds. Most of the things that even other neurodivergent people would just think of as “normal” if they think of it at all… is a big problem.
So trying to do anything consistently begins to feel like a “have to” and the next thing I know, I’m not able to do it. This even happens with things that I want to do, if I want it to a point that my brain decided I “need” to do it.
In that light, I’m going to TRY to start blogging. No promises. No promises about if or when I will write posts, no promises on what I will write… however, I’m expecting topics like mental health (specically arount being autistic, adhd, and pda. Might even throw in things about stories I’m working on, whether scenes, ideas, images, videos… who knows.
Welcome to the chaos
So, I feel your Neuro-spicy trauma!! Not in the same way, mine is more of a PTSD from a very very young age. Every day life isn’t so bad anymore, I can function without anger or alcohol. Somethings are just blocked…it’s just doesn’t happen because I can’t go there or if I push to hard…my mind literally will block it. I’m not sure my mind knows I’m an adult now! The mind is a funny thing and mine definitely has a sense of humor. If I’m not working, preferably alone then I’m at home reading or with my dogs walking in nature somewhere alone. Books are the great escape!
Yeah, PTSD is no joke. I’m glad Things have gotten better for you.
I completely get the idea of feeling your brain not seeming to understand your an adult. My variety pack of neurospicy is basically (adult) me as well as toddler me, and teen me… except I’m not the one in control of the meatsuit. To get anything done I need to bargain with one or the other of them to get it to happen. Unfortunately, Toddler me loves the word “NO!!!!”, and teen grew up in the 90s so its “WHATEVER”.
And yes!!!! I’m either writing stories, reading stories, watching stories… or in nature. (Preferably ANY of them while in nature!!)
Thank you so much for stopping by and leaving a note. It means so much. (I’m used to feeling like Im writing into a void. lol)